I haven’t read any of the responses yet. Wasn’t home but something occured to me while riding in the train and I wrote this down to share. I will get to the rest of the responses tomorrow, including the older ones I haven’t even got to. This does take quite a bit of energy so I should take it slower. But hey…
You know what’s interesting about this forum? There are 3710 users that have joined and about 224 active members. About like 186 are from when the forum opened in 2020. We have only grown like 30 or so active members in over 2 years. Thousands signed up and hundreds would post then leave soon right after. Time and time again, I would get messages of how the behavior and vibe here is unwelcoming. People’s actions here have had consequences. Let’s explore that.
The vibe of the forum changed over time but throughout most of it, the way many of you would talk to people would repel people away. Then most active users now withdrew to nft groups, from which a lot of drama has occured since we started that. Now the forum has divided into clicks and there are people who literally hate eachother here. The vision for this forum was a welcoming, peaceful and harminious community with spiritually productive discussions. The forums essence doesnt seem all too reflective if this vision. I probably wouldn’t want to stay here either if I was a stranger looking in.
Some of the behavior here cost the forum some beautiful minds that would have done well with this community. Some wise teachers too. I got to interact with some and they could have helped this community thrive more and perhaps been people some of you really connect with. The behavior also cost the growth of the forum over the years.
Maybe I should have grown to dislike and treat some of you the way you guys do to the others for being problematic, as that’s what you were to me. Maybe I should have removed some of you from the forum.
But… you know what love is? I sacrificed the vision of a welcoming community and the growth of it to keep you guys here cause I believed you guys had the potential to grow.
I chose not to be the thought police. I would forgive many of you when you’d cross the line. I would defend you guys time and time again and merely try to nudge you all to do better. And why be so nice to people who aren’t?
Cause I love ya’ll that’s why. I an welcoming to all. To the blind, the dumb, the ignorant, the hated, the hateful, the loving, the unloved, the beautiful, the ugly, the everything. I tolerated all your behavior because that’s what unconditional love is. It is being compassionate even at the hardest of times. And I truly wanted to see you all grow and well, you guys have been growing over the years. Even the guys I am having this debate with have grown in many ways over the years. It’s been beautiful to watch you all blossom.
Many of you have become good friends. Many of you have helped guide eachother into growing in more ways than one. So much wisdom shared. This became a safe space to vent to. A space to be heard. A space where many of the people here are rooting for you to grow. Many of you are so warm hearted and even eager to help others. It’s beautiful… A community where we all share our love of sapienmed and a piece if ourselves. There’s a very striking duality to it all. I still love this forum and everyone in it.
Life is hard and I understand how draining it is to to get along with people you disagree with. But the only path to peace in this world is unity. Love is the hard work that will pave that path. So I will not give up on my fellow humans and continue to spread my loving light to anyone and anywhere. I would hope you all could grow to do the same someday. But that’s your choice to make.