i am getting more attention from all sources just like Attract Love’s description says. i listen to the whole Alchemy of Love album and other social related audios.
just today at a social gathering (with social distancing rules enforced) i experienced:
- a friend coming over to me saying that she was overwhelmed by the amount of people and needed to stand beside me because of my ‘neutral’ energy. she is like an empath and can see auras.
- her boyfriend coming over sometime after mentioning that he was also overwhelmed by how many people there are and coming to me because i felt calmer.
- i was interested by the grass i was standing on and when i looked up i saw an auntie taking a video of me and waving. it wasn’t too out of the norm because it is a celebratory gathering, but we don’t know each other and i wasn’t doing anything noteworthy to be filmed.
- i kept receiving so many compliments on how i look and i didn’t really change anything about my style.
i expected a feeling to come over me like happiness knowing that i’m getting the attention i wanted, but i just felt neutral and calm like my friends mentioned. i realized that it wasn’t the attention that was important to me, but the feeling of confidence and self-esteem i was truly searching for. i want to know it in my being that i am wanted and appreciated.
time to listen to more extreme self confidence and self esteem!