I was planning to buy another field but I ended up with this one. When the Mother calls, you have nothing to do but respond ;)) And also because when Maoshan Wanderer speaks, there’s always something that says “you can go for it”.
I really don’t know how to describe this, without ruining it with foolish words. It was like 158 elephants walking on me. Might be 157 as well, not sure. I felt incredibly heavy but not in a negative sense of the term.
It’s more because you have a “being” or let’s say “beings”, “beingnesses” that go far beyond your frame of reference. The “you” here = me of course. The me who isn’t even me lol.
A similar experience did happen during the Essassani premiere, months ago. One of the few moments in my life that turned me into a believer (in my own way). The guys showed up and gave a party at my place that night, while I was crying. Not only because I was impressed but more because I was frustrated. About my limitations. Rendering me incapable of aligning with them, you know.
Yes, those Sassani folks that I despised and mocked before meeting them, labeling them as an imaginative nonsense of Darryl “Doe” Anka. But they became like a family to me since then. One never knows with whom they might fall in love someday, so it’s obviously better to keep our big mouths shut. As much as possible.
The first experiences with the Mother were similar. I sensed an interlocutor that understands me perfectly, without me reciprocating and “understanding” the immensity that she represents. So I was like “hmppphhh!” :))) I also felt overwhelmed by the love I received while meditating on the field.
Afterwards, I stayed petrified like for 30 minutes :))) and then, poof! I was back to a state of calmness, peace and acceptance. The overwhelming energy had softened and been distributed to wherever it was needed. Inside and outside.
I did. It was very pleasantly enveloping. Reminded me of what I smelled in the Hindu temple in Paris. It was even a whole mix of fragrances, with the other elements of the ritual. It lasted for at least 2 hours after the meditation.
As for today, I feel… just like what I feel :))) Not something that belongs to my usual inventory, not limited to it. Expanded, maybe? But very protected and empowered for sure.
Thank you for this and the whole collection. I’ll get them all but right now, I try to “Capital Govern” myself a little lol.