I have another update: Today I decided I would take a break from audios/energy work for a little bit and just kind of meditate a bit each day. I was doing about 20 minutes of meditation earlier, just focusing on my breath. Suddenly a white flash appeared while I had my eyes closed and my whole body kind of jerked. Then I felt this weird sensation that started to cover my whole body from my toes, up my body until my head. Then I started to feel this sort of energy ball like thing (maybe, it was hard to tell) outside my body but it was bouncing back and forth, while going up to my third eye then back down to my feet and back up again. Eventually it stopped when I focused on the third eye briefly. Then I could feel this like pill or a small ball sensation in the lower dantien (feels physical, it might be just outside of it though, closer to the exterior of the lower abdomen) and another ball a bit bigger except this one was definitely inside the lower dantien, bouncing back and forth quite vigorously, felt real. Eventually the bouncing ball started to feel like a bubbling sensation. Then it felt like it was turning around and around quite fast.
Before I go on, some of these sensations are described in Damo Mitchell’s book, “A Comprehensive Guide to Daoist Nei Gong”. Particularly the bubbling and bouncing.
“If the Jing starts to condense to a high level, this can interact with the Qi of the Dan Tian and so this will feel as if the inside of the Dan Tian is bubbling.” He goes on to say that this bubbling is very important within the Alchemical meditation processes of Daoism.
“When the lower Dan Tian fills to a very high level, then the ‘sphere’ of the Dan Tian will be very clear to feel. Though it is really the Qi interacting with the Huang of the abdomen, it can feel as if there is a very solid ball within your abdomen that is about the size of a ping pong ball. It will start to ‘bounce’ up and down inside of you.”
The final phenomenon is light radiating from within, that signals that the Lower Dan Tian is full.
Now, he mentions the alchemical processes of Daoism, basically this is the process of Taoists becoming immortal. I will quote from the book “Internal Alchemy for Everyone” by Chungtao Hao*. In particular, Stage 2 is the stage where you refine the essence. First step is to gather the ingredients (Jing, Qi, Shen I believe), second is to seal and stabilize (send to lower elixir field). Third is relevant to my experience, which is “boil and refine”.
“The heating process during which the ingredients are turned over and over inside the elixir field and circulated 360 times along the small heavily circuit.”
That’s kind of what it felt like when I described the turning in the lower elixir field, it only lasted a short while.
Step four is “ceasing the fire”, which done after “three flashes of bright light” (I experienced one of them earlier). This is a “manifestation of internal brightness and radiance that signals the successful refinement.” This sounds the same as what Damo Mitchell described as the last phase of filling the Lower Dan Tian.
Basically at the end of Stage 2 for the Alchemical process, you become a sexless being and your reproductive system is shut down, allowing for perfect energy to flow. Men lose their Adam’s Apple, the testicles wither and the penis shrinks and retracts into the abdomen.
I hope to god I’m not experiencing the Alchemical Process lmao, cuz this shit was not intentional at all, I just wanted to meditate in peace lol… Anyways I’ll continue the update later.
