i see
but in essence it is a problem of mental stress and anxiety
The Myofascial Release and Anointing (Gumroad)
The Crucible of Stored Trauma (Gumroad)
PONR (THE POINT OF NO RETURN) on Gumroad
https://forum.enlightenedstates.com/t/point-of-no-return/29665
https://forum.enlightenedstates.com/t/the-crucible-of-stored-trauma-new-release/20404
could help in relaxing muscles from trauma which can result from repeating anxiety problems
but your main problem remain that you get anxious
so target anxiety with anxiety fields
The All Purpose Anxiety Removal