Hi @Lanos, how are you going now?
I’ve just read your post and am very sorry you’re going through these difficulties.
I know it can be difficult when one is in emotional or physical distress to keep consistency with fields, but if you can, please try listening to Energy Aura/Body Deep Clearing Cleaning each morning and anytime you begin to feel weighed down by your life again.
Often in such circumstances, the physical and energetic body can become overwhelmed easily, and this is one of the gentlest fields available for those in emotional distress of any sort.
So if you can only listen to one field consistently daily, please give this field a try.
Often the physical and emotional and energetic debris accumulated in such times is felt most densely in the mornings after one awakens, so this is a very helpful time to play this field and help release some of these old patterns in your being.
It can be very helpful for emotional distress such as depression, anxiety, anguish, panic attacks and negative patterns, and will help you establish new patterns over time.
If you can add another field consistently, please add Lymphatic Effusion +, as the very processes involved in emotional anguish tend to result in waste products building up in the nervous system, brain and body.
As well, when one is physically sick this will be increased too.
This build up of waste products physically can result in keeping the brain activity in a state which perpetuates depression, anxiety and emotional anguish.
So draining these waste products can often have a significant lifting effect on the emotions, as well as aid you body in physically healing.
As you play Energy Body/Aura Deep Clearing Cleaning, each time it will help remove layers of patterns and attachments, which will help uplift your overall life and free you of this.
It may be a gradual process, but just do your best and the difficulties you are experiencing can begin to lift, bit by bit.
When you are feeling a bit better and able to, @_OM’s Modified Point of No Return Stack, which @King_A posted, can be an excellent way to begin to turn the patterns in one’s life around.
You can add even 1 or 2 of the remaining 3 fields in that stack if you don’t feel you can add them all at once yet.
And for those feeling overwhelmed like Lanos, if Love, Gratitude and Appreciation feels overwhelming, sometimes the older version (here on Patreon) can be gentler on one’s nervous system.
If you can only do one thing daily, though, please try Energy Body/Aura Deep Clearing Cleaning each day whenever you awaken from sleep, or begin to feel more weighted down.
With some consistency and gradual progress, you will be able to lift this, and eventually have or accomplish anything you want in life.
Let’s get you out of these immediate patterns by lightening your burden first, then there are and will be many solutions to whatever you want to have in life, and we can begin to build upon this with those gradually.
I hope this can help you and anyone else reading this who is suffering.
There are ways to get through this and lighten your burden, and to begin to change the patterns you’ve experienced in your life until now, for the better.
Best of wishes to you, and please let us know how you are going and if you are struggling, if you feel it can help you. There are many of us here who truly wish you the best in your life and want you to find happiness.
I am sure we can help you together somehow to find the better life you want and deserve. 
