today I had a dream of a monk and a girl raising me I think. I recall I was small in size and I was in the kitchen with them.
I even almost learned a recipe of something simple but delicious.
It was like:
honey
flour
and 2 other things which I forgot.
oooooo maybe you’ll happen to find them!
that sounds delicious!
today it hit me how alone i felt like i don’t feel the energy of all the support i have.
i said out loud how alone i felt and that i feel like i’m giving too much and not receiving enough.
by the second time i was looping this i still felt upset so i was messaging my coworker that i’ll still come to work today, but i won’t be at my best.
just before i finished typing and sending, he messaged me asking me where something was so we can make my favourite dish for the teens.
i was surprised at the intervention, but grateful. i also see him as more of a father figure than my dad could ever be for me.
the feelings of carrying the world on my shoulders are still there… but it feels lighter now.
i learned how to forgive myself and a lot of the anxiety i felt gradually left me.
i have more thoughts and feelings about loving my parents and being grateful for them.
i feel more love towards my dog as i can see myself as his parent in many ways.
the feeling of fun and joy is coming back. it used to be locked away by needing a purpose or meaning. now i am learning to have fun for the sake of having fun.
From what I understand, the quality of the speakers doesn’t matter. The fields get transmitted regardless.
Become Whole is one of my absolute favorites. Try running it once or twice instead until your system adapts, if you have to. I remember when I first started using it, the area around my heart chakra became super sore… that’s the best way I could describe it. But in a good way. Changes were happening that really needed to happen. It makes you more comfortable in your own skin. You find yourself more accepting of yourself, if that’s an issue- and it’s an issue for almost everyone to varying degrees.
So, if I had to guess, it’s probably something you really need. I think in the coming weeks and months you’ll notice a nice shift. Hang in there 
Wow— I just recently added this back to my stack. I’ve come to see how out of all the fields, this one still hits strong, if not the strongest among all. This one always melts away my exterior shells and makes me ‘softer’ in a sense. Always manages to leave me more sealed while insecurities are still being evaporated and right back at me, most times. I recommend you listen to The Internal Alchemical Crucible right after, preferably followed by Auric and Energy body repair, or the simple yet powerful Transmutation and Microcosmic Orbit a couple times; all working together towards drawing in a smoother after effect while drawing out the energies you don’t want hanging in your system. Tarot fields are best to use along too; The Devil, Death, and The Tower.
I recently added this into my morning stack and was listening to it today. I was pretty surprised that I was not repulsed by the flutes even though I didn’t lower the volume 
(I usually turn down the volume when I hear any flutes because for some reason, flutes really hurts my head? Idk why.)
It made me feel calm and protected, felt really good in my head area. I guess it’s what I always wanted to feel from my parents.
This field is the most important field I needed to use, I feel good
Has anybody used that one long term yet? I’d like to know what the effects are…
I used it for two months and sometimes would loop it overnight. There was definitely a huge detox phase where you’re more than usual in your “inner child” but not the side where it is re-exploring the world. I also overused at times. There has been some deeper root healing but I can tell you it’s definitely not a field to drop. Back at it now and the difference was immediately felt.
I also believe it is the field to add if you are looking for enhancing your own relationships, whether personal or with everyone… since all behavioral conditioning starts with the inner child…
Yeah I keep on this one either regularly for prolonged time or from time to time
Thanks Alexander for the reminder btw! Playing now with Ego dissolution :)
You’re welcome🙂 Dont know how I’ve been sleeping on it for so long . I’ll listen to this one daily from now on.
It’s been part of my Night stack (2x) for a few (3-4?) months now.
Because I’m playing whilst I sleep (and among quite a number of other fields) I can’t give you an exact report. But I’m pretty sure that it’s been instrumental to the shifts and healings that I’ve been having during that time period.
I played this field today when I was in the car with my mum . And she immediately started talking about how difficult her relationship with her mum is …
Interesting observation.
In general, it’s easy to forget our own parents possible lack of received parental love.
To intellectually understand that our parents maybe had to grow up under difficult circumstances is one thing. But in our hearts really feel it, to see our parents as vulnerable kids…
I always think of this when looking at old photos from my parents childhood.
We have to parent ourselves at point in life eventually.
Exactly!! 
Yeah I also started seeing us as a family more again instead of singular individuals.
I didnt plan for it this time, but I might pay it more often .
Because of the interference: in this case I wouldn’t be worried .
Yes my mum definitely has had a bad childhood ,yet she still takes care of her mum, who is in the hospital right now. And I think her inner child is very hurt and neglected . But I dont know how to deal with that for her .