well, i was already feeling the “negentropic” effects lol of whatever from the past, but now i am seeing / feeling the effects when situations that could have turned unfair for Me come my way.
this thing is powerful, its like the sword stands My guns strongly and nothing (extra unnecessary compassion, or kindness, or undeserved understanding, or extra chances, fears, etc) let Me give in, or change my mind.
very common event in the life of Empaths…
it might sound funny but i feel it like this huge sword along its energy wrapping me around or standing before me, or behind Me and i laughed earlier remembering something that happened yesterday at work, like this thing is making me feel as when someone that was not good for me would knock on my door for me to come out and play when i was small and i would just slightly open the door and say: “I cant go, My Mom has forbidden me to be friends with you, you always get us in trouble” while My Mom was behind Me supporting me haha
so there… even tho I am strong to say No, i also give the benefit of the doubt more than enough times, and or if i say No right away i feel bad and guilty for a while. now it comes easily because and here is the also fun thing about this, it keeps the justice in Me on check as well, so if i was to say No to something where the fair thing would have been to say yes, this would make me feel it, like a rush pushing me to say yes and where all in me is saying YES its the only option, so say it.
IT IS FREAKING POWERFUL. lol
and then (and this was another situation) where i said yes, with a bit of hesitation, like i wanted to change my mind and say no, but i dont like changing my decisions, so i was like ugh… ok, well, i already said it, cant go back.
and guess what… things fell in place for the situation NOT happening lol i didnt do anything but things were moved by others in higher positions and surrounding circumstances got in the way, and then i was like “uhm well, sorry i cant do anything about it, its out of my control”
later on i was pondering the whole thing and i said… yup my hesitation really meant = he doesnt deserve what i was going to do for him and i F knew it lol
it feels so liberating let me tell you, if there`s one thing i wanted to stop in my life was this. being an empath and a giver is the most bitter sweet quality you can have. beautiful and hard. and you live your life in this constant fluctuation between wanting to give because is in you and trying to not lose yourself or your assets in the process.
one way or another we always lose something, but because it also warms and expands our heart we keep doing it. even if we find ourselves struggling down the line.
and a lot of times, the injustice we have felt in life could have been prevented or avoid if we could have said no or walk away.
givers need to know when to stop because takers never do.
this Sword of Righteous does it for you!!!