Week 1 almost over. Intensity of butt-kicks: 5/10
Know those endlessly frustrating plan-making check mark loving folks? I’m one of them. So, of course I had to make some lists and week-by-week spreads. There are plenty of things to improve and choosing the most important ones is a painful process because the temptation to be and do everything all at once yesterday (and then get frustrated and waffle and quit) is very real. After several mindmaps I think this ought to be my game plan:
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Daily meditation. No skipping, no nothing. It will be the foundation for any future endeavours of spiritual nature. My mind is a monkey abusing cocaine and I’m done being a thunderbolt of anxiety.
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The weight. I’m also done being the fatty. I lost a ridiculous amount of weight a decade ago and got stuck yo-yoing around a certain number. Why? If and when I get to a “normal” weight I’ll have excess skin all over my body. All over, not just around the usual spots. Morbid obesity - the gift that keeps giving for the rest of one’s life! I say I’ll learn to live with it but that’s a brazen lie right there. The mere idea of all that flapping, drooping futile mass makes my skin crawl. Also, the weight has served as a nice excuse for dodging, avoiding, jilting many things and dreams. So… I’ll be a human sharpei. It’s not like strutting my stuff on the beach or becoming an underwear model has ever been a dream of mine. Rock climbing, horse riding and running - those have!
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Employment. The situation is dire. Everyone in my country is having a hard time finding jobs. I can manage 'til June but after that I need a divine miracle of epic proportions if I’m still in between jobs. Luckily I have a certain NFT and all sorts of fields. Time to pick, commit and concentrate. (This has been a priority all along, of course, but the intensity of work-related butt-kicks needs to amp up now.)
This week’s progress:
-daily meditation 10/10
-daily self love stacks 10/10
-diet on point 5/10 (“B-but I can’t let these… uh… less healthy options go to waste!”)
-exercise 2/10 (“B-but the weather has been so beastly and uh it’s only week 1”)
-job hunting 7/10 (imagine a desert blooming dead roses)