I know what I’ll say won’t do much to ease that terrible feeling. You feel what you feel, and it’s just as valid. I’m just going to say I can relate to this, and share if it would help. I’ve had some very bad people enter my early life as well, my family’s life actually. Greedy, malicious and malevolent people.
I am not a saint, and there is anger in my heart. But my method of revenge is becoming so much better than these worms, and to live my life as best as I can despite having the karma of crossing paths with such people.
They thought me a lesson though, what exactly NOT to do and not to be.
It is not fair, and it’s not justice. If I took justice in my own hands, I’ll be the one paying the price, just as the rare moments when these people enter my mind, it’s a disservice to me.
We all have our ways to deal with our pain and suffering, hopefully you will find yours too, in a way that heals you completely, and propels you to greatness. I hope you find peace, even though it is hard.