abro’s HPP Entry#1
How many topics did you release today?
10
- im a creep
- betrayed by best friend
- resistance to writing this post
- resistance to doing this at all (new technique, no-one tells me what to do etc)
- sadness of two exes when I woke up
- numbness and deadend feeling about a perceived childhood memory
- wanting to lie around all day (im on holidays, I’ve earned it etc)
- recent breakdown and departure of living conditions
- bad father (hurt)
- confusion over this process
- some shame
How did you feel before the session?
Quite vague in many ways. Many pieces were and still are coming together after 6 months of pretty extreme trauma, heartbreak and turmoil. So its definitely a period of transition… this feeling and experience is with me on most days. I felt a lot of confusion about the process and see that now as my mind wanting to understand the details of how it all works. This left me feeling a bit scrambled and reduced my desire to press on with things.
How did you feel after the session?
More clear, more clarity, less jumbled, even when I’m jumbled haha
Each session feels like it’s building on the previous one, like I’m carving out a new way of doing and experiencing things. I experienced a lot of confusion in the beginning and I had to work through this sense of trying to “will” the emotion to appear and as a result stayed in this funky extended am I or aren’t I doing this energy. So I cut myself a break and decided to just work on the feelings as they arise organically (as they always do) in the beginning, to give me something very clear to work with. Now I’m able to bring it more from thinking to feeling under my own will. I’m still working on this part. I also got a bit caught up in “who or what am I saying sorry etc to?” I worked this angle as well and soon remembered (as you all will once you are satoried) that I am speaking to the energy that is me, my feeling, they are one. Using the HPP I arrived at this super quickly and it actually triggered a mini satori experience in itself… bonus!
Did you experience deep sense of relief or big emotional releases? Is the process getting easier, if so how?
I have covered some of this previously, but yes it’s getting easier. The main way is that my mind is getting out of the picture more. I’m using the mind more as a stimulus and initiation point then moving through more with instinct and feeling. This feels right to me. No huge releases yet, but I feel this is definitely chipping away at something.
Anything else you wish to add.
I feel this part / piece is giving me more clarity around my emotions, allowing me to seperate them more from thoughts. Another thing is that I am really feeling the power of the love part. I really feel guys if this part confuses you at all, just try and surrender to love… thought to self - “I love you” let yourself really feel it, if any thoughts attach to this part, add them to the list to HPP, or do them immediately after the one you’ve just worked on. Also… Ive just been doing a bit of “I love you” without the other steps lol I’m always somewhat of a rebel, but it feels nice and I haven’t really said it to myself at all since my breakup 6 months ago… feels nice on its own and I deserve it
thanks for listening guys
) : Alright so fixing that emotional pain made me access my source of love to the point where I can feel constant good vibrations now. I’ve also identified these emotional blocks that manifest as physical barriers/weights making my lips and tongue heavy and difficult to move. All I’m having to do is identify each barrier, feel the negative vibrations in my chest, ask for forgiveness and love it. And then the negative vibrations get converted into positive vibrations again. I’ll keep doing this now until every barrier is gone. My speech is already feeling a lot less lighter now, requiring much less effort to pronounce the same things.
