I understand what youâre telling us and not everyone is meant to be âfriendsâ with everyone else. IOW, itâs just fine if youâre not interested in connecting to her.
It sounds like you want to continue to try to connect with her, so let me share some ideas that popped into my mind as I read your post. (And I am by no means an expert on Lakshmi or these Homams and Yagnas. These are ideas that literally popped in my headâsomething which, for me, happens with this particular fieldâthat you might want to play with and see what works for you.)
In keeping with my post about âmeeting a new friend that Iâd like to get to know better,â if I were in your position, I would decide whether I would like to get to know her. IOW, decide and then set an honest (for you) intention ofâsayââIâd like to get to know you better and letâs see what happens.â Because we all have had those situations where someone is making nice to us because they âhave toâ and (for most of us) thatâs a little bit insulting. I mean, Iâd much rather them decide that Iâm cool and worthy of being nice to because of who I am, not because of some obligation, if youâre with me.
That brings me to my next idea: approach your times with this field for the experience alone. Going back to my idea of the ânew friend,â thereâs nothing more of a turn-off to me than someone approaching me with an eye out for what they can get out of our interaction. So, Iâve been using this field with more of an attitude of âHey, you seem cool and I like to get to know more about who you are.â (and who doesnât love to hear that, am I right?)
Now, for me, thatâs an easy attitude for me to take, becauseâcâmonâWealth, Beauty, Comfort and Luxury, Love as well as Courage and VictoryâŚwhatâs not like about any of that, right? So, for me, I can have an attitude of âWow, itâs cool that youâre into all of those cool things. Howâd you do that? Howâd you get to be so cool?â and maybe it could be easy for you to find a similar attitude for yourself.
Next idea: if itâs not easy for you to find that list interesting, (and I ask this without judgement) might that be a indicator that you have some blockages you might want to clean up? No big deal. We have all sorts of tools for that (SLR, Clear All Negative Energy, Internal Alchemical Crucible, the Love and the Abundance fieldsâdepending on what might be going on for you). A lot of rituals require the participants to cleanse themselves before approaching the spirit of the ritual. Maybe you might need to do an energetic cleansing in order to approaching and connecting with Lakshmi? Again, not a big deal for us because we have tools.
Now, sometimes we might not connect to the list of those cool interests Lakshmi has. Like if weâre meeting our favorite musical star but we have no idea what their lifestyle is like (and so we have nothing to talk with them about, sort of like âWhat do I say to someone who flies on private jets when Iâm lucky to scrape together bus fare?â) Iâve been focusing on the Beauty or the Love or the Abundance, etc. that I do have (or have once had), just so she and I have a common interest. The other day I found a dollar on the street (with no one around who might have dropped it). I thought about that little bit of extra abundance as I was listening to this field on that day because that was topic which interested both of us. (And it goes back to my idea of not approaching her in an attitude of âWhat can you do for me?ââEww! Ick!âand more towards âThat was cool and I liked that. I donât know if you had anything to do with that, but I know youâre interested in it and Iâm interested in it, so letâs start thereâŚâ)
Lastly, Iâm going to recommend that you might not want to be so quick to take score of whether youâre getting something or nothing. Iâm reminded of the people in my life whom I had been quick to judge as ânothingâ to me who later on turned out to be amazing and important people in my life. Let your experience unfold, like you let your most comfortable friendships unfold.
(Take from the above anything which resonates with you and leave the rest.) Have fun! (I think sheâs all about fun, too. )