What i see is fear of poverty or not being super successful, but i dont think they originate from you
Maybe you grew up with the family struggling to meet ends?
Maybe you grew up seeing parents or whoever you grew up with working hard non stop to provide a good life to you?
Maybe you grew up in a very competitive family that was always pushing to being more successful?
Because honestly those fears/guilt that you mentioned come from situations like that (what you grew up seeing, learning)
Because otherwise you wouldnt feel that.
If it bugs you that you are not doing enough as uhmā¦ āwhat you should beā says who? If the worries were coming from your own mind you would be looking for solutions, but they dont come from you, in fact they come when you are just content and happy with what you have, but then those intrusive thoughts come inā¦ when you remembered āhow one should work hard all the time, other wiseā¦ youll be poor, you struggleā etc
Am I wrong?
If i am correct, then just live your life the way you want it, work on the financial goals you want to achieve because theyd provide the life YOU want, no matter how average or wealth that life seems to others (including family and close friends)
Dont feel guilty, you are not filling any one shoes but yours, you are not fulfilling frustrations from others that couldnt and now they expect it from you.
Get what you want at your own pace, whatever that is but that makes your heart happy not any ones elseās.
Even if you dont want to add more fieldsā¦
You kinda need New Perspectives Lol