I’ve avoided answering you for a couple of days in order to observe.
The first time I’ve used it I was feeling it strongly in my head, and I was literally seeing lights. It was intense.
I’ve tried the ‘why x?’ method, but not much, as I wasn’t certain about the reliability of the answers (1) I was getting, so I’ve used it passively with just 1x the next couple of days. Then again, actively, a couple of repeats. Still intense in the head, but subsiding. Something grand was happening in my mental world, a great shift. Somethings were dissolving.
I have not seen things that one might not want to look at, so far. The answers for me came in short, few words. It seems it may enable dramatic shifts in things I was stuck on and I could not resolve otherwise. It was mostly pain-free (other than the definite energetic intensity in the head), though there was some confusion caused by the answers (like… ‘how is this tied to that??’, ‘what do you meannn?’). You can say the confusion was painful, but that wouldn’t be something entirely new… I for now stopped trying to go much deeper and just let it process things, I’ll see what it meant when I get more clarity.
The after-effects are mostly relieving and… unifying, upon active more focused work. It seems to have activated the knowing/remembering of things I was not aware of – which can now be processed by the tools at my disposal, that might have not been able to get that deep.
I’ve also previously used Maitreya’s Shadow Integration. You can use that both passively and actively, to at least get something going on this end. I’d put that in a passive playlist, though it was quite ‘nice’ actively used too.
There seemed to have been a preference for SZ’s version, which is also more interactive.
This one seemed to have gotten the largest ‘approval’ and effects – perhaps because of the automatic processing (?), as I haven’t found it to be as interactive as SZ’s (actually I may not be interacting with the shadow directly here, but it seems like it does ‘bring it up’).
In all cases, my Shadow was keen and willing to ‘collaborate’, not at all something to be frightened by. I tried to communicate honestly with it.
my soul was suffering from heavy sexual energies of others …
