Feeling lost and low, need help

anon2 · September 6, 2021, 8:34pm

Hello guys. I am a little afraid to reveal my identity on such a public platform so I have chosen the name Anon2. I hope that is ok.

I need ur help please. A little bit about me. I have tried to grow in life but always ended up failing. At this point I feel really stuck and lost. When I was younger I got into personal development and that seemed like my way to finally improve my life. Now after a few tries, it has all just kind of become hopeless. I am trying to find the energy to keep going, but at this point I feel really lost. I don’t know what I want, how am I going to get my “dream life”, I feel like I have failed so many times that now I have in some way even lost faith in achieving my hopes and dreams.

Often, days feel like a battle, trying to escape reality, pass time. Sometimes I see glimpses of hope and life working out for me, but it just seems so rare, so fleeting that it’s hard to believe in anything right now. I am here because sapien medicine has helped me in the past. I have grown a lot using these audios, but I have been far far away from the community for more than a year.

I know it seems selfish for me to just come here and dump my pain here, and expect you guys to fix me, but that’s not what I want. I want to be able to get out of this phase of feeling low and stuck. Sometimes it feels like I’m in quicksand and I’m just drowning and there seems to be no way out.

I request whoever can help me and is willing to, to please do so. I don’y know too much about the new audios and dont remember a lot about the old ones since its really been a while. I just request for some help to make 2 stacks that can get me out of this and help me get back to feeling like myself again, because I dont know if this person who I have become is me anymore. I am willing to put in effort, I will take action, I will report back with my results. I also know that this cannot substitute any professional/medical help and I understand and accept it. I am just looking for some support to make things easier for me which I know these audios can provide.

Now for my request -

1st stack : to get out of this low/stuck feeling. Almost depressed like. I guess audios that could help me feel happy, purposeful, motivated. Audios that could fill me with some hope and support. Audios that could rebuild my faith in myself and the universe, so that I don’t feel so lost and alone anymore. So that it doesn’t feel like living = a constant battle against everything and everyone. I just want to be able to feel alive again.

2nd stack - to help me gain back direction and purpose in life, so that I don’t just feel like I’m waiting to die. I want to be able to do things, have the inspiration to do things, I want to be able to trust again and feel like life is actually working out for me. I want to be able to know what is meant for me, how I can align myself with that, and how I can live life, rather than just surviving. Sometimes its so difficult feeling like this. Like I have so many emotions inside me, but it cannot even come out, I cannot even cry at how horrible life has become for me. I want to get out of this energy and back to living life, I see people living with such beauty, with light in their eyes, with happiness and I also want to be able to do that. Anything that can provide me with this direction.

I also would need some strength (energy) to take the action, because I am so drained from just surviving it feels like I have no energy inside me anymore, and some push/discipline that can help me with that extra step, during moments of weakness, so that I can take the right action.

I am willing to seek professional help, willing to face these emotions and get through them, willing to take action, willing to plan out what I desire as and when I discover it, but I need some support because right now it seems scary at my starting point and I’m hoping these audios can provide that.

I dont have much to give, and I’m sorry if I seem selfish in any way by dumping all my problems on you guys, but this seems like one of my last changes. I cannot give anything in exchange for this help and guidance other than deep gratitude, reporting back on my experiences, helping others in the future once I get through this myself.

I request you guys to help me get out of this place I have ended up in, and I thank you for reading through this post, even if you cannot help, just reading and acknowledging my problems, sparing some of your time for me, sending me any good thoughts/ energy etc… all of it helps and I am really grateful to all of you and this community in general. You guys have saved me before, and I feel like you can save me again, you can support me through this and I’m grateful for the support.

anon2 · September 6, 2021, 9:01pm

I try to do this often

but offlate it has become really difficult because I cannot feel any improvement, and so it feels really hopeless. I try to go for walks daily, try to do some guided meditations to release my emotions, and today I even pushed myself to go to a park and just sit barefoot on a bench, connecting with nature, and letting myself get grounded for 1/2 an hour. I try to take baby steps each day but right now life feels so horrible and I cant really see any way out that idk how to get out of this. I hope the fields can help me out with this.

Thank you for the welcome.

Star · September 6, 2021, 9:19pm

I feel you are in a really dark place right now, and I’m sorry for that. You are out of your center - heart - and over analyzing. I’ll recommend the exorcist audio and the Disconnect from negative energy one for you daily. The mental health whole album will be of help too, and looping the Emotional Release ending with the Crucible.

Happiness and joy field and Grief, Loss and loneliness could ease the heavy energy from your heart also.

I think here is a good starting point for you to find the way to push through your days and find your path and purpose.

Know that you are here on earth for a reason. It might be difficult for you to see it right now but all of us are unique, valuable, precious and irreplaceable in our own ways. Embrace your dark days but never give up. In your heart is placed all the light you may ever need.

Keep going and keep up the good fight. The fight we all have with our own darkness and ego.

anon37166570 · September 6, 2021, 9:31pm

Also:
cerebrum album
new perspectives
pure magnetic heart coherence

anon46520955 · September 6, 2021, 9:33pm

Hi anon2.

Welcome to the forum if you havent been here before

Great suggestions up there.

Mine would be:

As soon as waking up:

New Release - The Internal Alchemical Crucible x 2

Subconscious limit removal x2

New Release: The Essence of Mantras x 2

The Outlook Retrainer: Testimonials x 2

And

Evening / before bed

Subconscious limit removal x 1
Hope and happiness x 2
Eessence of faith and prayer x 2

For at least 2 weeks

If you can at least buy one thing:

Book of cards on gumroad
Get familiar with the cards

And create the fae servitor

Check the posts about the book and the fae

Once you start feeling happy with hope and better perspectives then

Imaginarium divine on patreon like twice a day.

It will help you find your way again and purpose in life

Nice2knowU · September 6, 2021, 10:05pm

Wow man …
First of all a hug ( well can’t find the emoji)

It’s one of the trickiest spots to be in feeling-wise because you really wanna get out of this but your mind really keeps you stuck in this.

I would cook up the following recipe…:

Confidence mandala - appetizer
Blueprint of life - main course
Emotional release - to season
Shamanic medicine - dessert

It’s not set in stone at all. You can experiment with others like vibration of creation, auric repair, armor of light and glory and you need lots of love… Divine love, love and gratitude, unconditional love etc, maybe angelic intercession, there are so many.

Remember two things… It takes time and celebrate every success (this will rewire your brain), but please persist because overnight change is usually difficult from this state.

Also, now make a firm decision to change to a better place, whatever it takes and whatever is keeping you back. You can make this decision in your mind or on paper. It just has to feel really certain.

Good luck man…

anon2 · September 6, 2021, 10:34pm

Pretty much

Thank you for your reply and guidance. Will look into these fields.

This is exactly how it feels, and I have reached a point where idk if the dawn is coming anymore. I have been facing this darkness for so long, that dawn just seems out of my reality.

Thank you for your recommendations.

Thank you for the warm welcome, I have lurked for a bit, I had an account on the old forum, really long ago, when it was just made, before it merged with enlightened states, but I wasn’t really active.

Also thanks a lot for your advice, idk if I should play around with a servitor, especially since I find it an extremely difficult concept to understand tbh. But I will try out all the other audios recommended by you and everyone else who has chosen to reply. Thanks for your epic advice.

I am especially looking forward to this one, I know I will eventually get through the low state, especially after everyones guidance and warmth, but I guess thats when the real battle begins. All the above advice will help me go from negative to neutral, and going from neutral to positive is where it will be my make it or break it situation

It really is, and often times it can feel like a hell loop that you just cannot get out of. Thank you for your recipie, seems really interesting and I will look into all of these recoomendations.

I do agree with this also strongly, and I hope the audios can help me feel the love so I can get out of this situation.

Thanks a lot everyone who replied, I really appreciate the care, support, guidance. I will try my best to get out of this situation, and hopefully reach a better place soon. Lots of love and gratitude to everyone who replied and read my post.

Zen · September 6, 2021, 11:06pm

Welcome to the forum friend, many folks here are willing to help.

@TheBeardedYogi any words / suggestions?

anon46520955 · September 6, 2021, 11:07pm

Oh and also tune in the Meditation live steaming on Sapien channel or the special one on Dream seeds.

You can leave either one playing at low volume in the back ground while you do other things.

Theres an app if you have android called Subconscious Advice

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Its very uplifting and it actually scans your subconscious and delivers mesages that gives you tips on things depending on what blockages are messing around your subconscious you can use it daily for short accurate advices and its free

Kristiyan · September 6, 2021, 11:59pm

Hey, bro I know how you feel. When I was young I was lost, depressed and had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. I was mostly wasting my days with video games, porn and other cheap dopamine sources. I would suggest if you have money to get the Best Path In Life and Intercession tags. Trust me these tags bring massive change over a long period of time. You have no idea how my life changed since I’ve had them. The Best Path tag is going to push you to the best life you can have, the intercession tag lets entities help you in any way they can, also people will offer their help all the time, your intuition is going to increase massively. With these two tags you just have to trust your gut. I can’t really describe it but I will try. If you wear these 2 tags, you have to follow your gut feeling and intuition, you will just know what is best for you and what you will need to do to get there. In the first 1-3 months you will have many happy coincidences, when you look back on these coincidences you will realise that they occur just in the right time, in perfect synchronization with what happens after the coincidence, somehow influenced from outside, almost like magic. After the 3 months you will start having a very clear vision of what you have to do and somehow things will align just right to make this vision a reality. You will just sit there in your room doing nothing and then this vision almost like a message will hit you, when these “coincidences” or visions of future occur you will feel a HUGE wave of happiness, ambition and drive that you probably felt only two or three times in your whole life, it feels like your subconscious is telling you: “Yes this is it, you have to do this and I will guide you.” If you don’t have money for the tags, I would suggest you save up money for them. This is the best thing you can do for yourself. The tags will be with you for your whole life guiding you, and you just have to keep them around, in your pocket or under the pillow.

Wolfy3332 · September 7, 2021, 12:36am

How u doing bro? Foundationally I think it begins with love, for me… the VODL audio is a complete gamechanger. I think randomly before u sleep, you should loop only VODL, why? To me it’s a master key to release more than u can imagine… and also to progressively trace into loving yourself to no limits at your current state (albeit with reason obviously… it will simply come naturally but nothing too exaggerative) another thing that is really transforming is telling yourself “ILY”. through whatever moments(be it good, bad, neutral” personally, mine is “ILY bro” I’ve made this a habit. (Usually I say it in my mind or out loud in private space). Basically, it should be a lifestyle in my opinion. Idea of this practice is, when u are rooted in love… it eventually & progressively provides a very grounded & seemingly clear connection with yourself, after continuous releases obviously and a somewhat natural submission to the audio. This connection with self aided through love will guide u better in figuring stuff out.

SirChiropractixalot · September 7, 2021, 12:45am

How accurate is the scan?

anon46520955 · September 7, 2021, 12:51am

Try it?

SirChiropractixalot · September 7, 2021, 12:57am

I certainly will. Mind sharing your experiences with it?

anon46520955 · September 7, 2021, 1:01am

Ahhhhhhh okok

On point.

I dont use it daily, but when i am indecisive or like something its itching me like a little bothersome here and there?

I check it, it filters the main real reason which is cool.

Always an ahhhh aha! Moment

anon2 · September 7, 2021, 7:58pm

Yhea, I have noticed that and I’m eternally grateful.

will check it out, thanks a lot.

I’ll consider this, thanks a lot for your recommendation and detailed review. It really explains a lot

I need this I guess lol

Yhea I agree

epic, will check it out

anon2 · September 7, 2021, 7:58pm

I swear I have heard this exact same username somewhere lol. You seem really familiar.

anon2 · September 7, 2021, 8:17pm

Wanna report in, I found this article (again) called point of no return stack and I had listened to it, way back then, and its funny how it came back into my reality today. I listened to it in a stack, also added cord cutter. Made me feel a lot better, especially after doing some grounding also. But something deep changed today, so like I was watching this random movie to feel better, and I was looping an audio that was literally my audio way back when I used to listen to sapien, it was literally the audio that helped me the most. It’s called Angelic Intercession. I was just looping it, and the audio combined with the movie changed me fully. The movie was so magical lol, and extremely comforting, dealt with death, unfinished business, and it was beautifully made lol. Literally felt like a rom com but explored so so many areas of magick and spirituality, and when I focus on spirituality this is how it feels like for me deep down.

This movie literally gave me my hope,faith etc back, like towards the end I was finally able to cry, and the way I cried lol, its like all these emotions that have been stuck inside me for so long, all came out lol. I literally havent cried like this in years. All I felt and said was “sorry”, to myself, and “thank you” to the universe for this experience. It was honestly like I died and reborn, almost like a pheonix transformation and it was beautiful af. Thank you to whoever sent any positive energies to me, and thank you for my team, you guys r literally next lvl lol. I am gonna go back to this movie so so many times lol, and I do recommend you guys to check it out also, its an extremely light hearted comfort movie, feels like eating cookies or ice cream lol, but its beautiful and so so deep and transformative (for me atleast).

It’s called “the afterlife of the party” and its on netflix.

Just wanted to share this, because it feels like I’m finally back lol, and I’m feeling so so much better now, feel alive lol.

WellBeing · September 7, 2021, 8:30pm

^^^This.

After all, none of us with any experience plants a seed of corn and then, in the very next instant, stamps on the ground, demanding our stalk of corn. We understand that there’s a process.

Don’t you find it interesting that we allow this process to unfold with–say–corn but not with our own well-being? And I get it. I really do. I understand that there can be times in our lives when it sucks and hurts or when it seems that life (and everything else) is against us.

But that’s really not the time that we want to be turning against ourselves. (Which is what we usually do when we’ve planted a personal improvement seed. We quickly say nothing’s happening and then dig up our seed to check, often showing anyone who’ll listen, “See? See?! There’s no improvement.”–What? I’m the only one? --What seed sprouts and grows when we’re constantly digging it up, right?)

So, take some pressure off of yourself. That’s something that you can do right now. Start to find ways to talk yourself out any story that you’re telling yourself of how you’re stuck* or how there’s no improvement. (And, no, I’m not suggesting “positive thinking.” Just taking some pressure off of yourself, in ways that you can believe.)

You can do that. I have confidence in you.

*Nothing’s ever truly stuck. We just keep thinking and creating and doing and living the same things each day. Or, worse, we don’t recognize or give credit to all the little changes that are happening for us each and every day (How can we be “stuck” when we’re having little changes each and every day, right?)

And this is even more true when you hold an idea that we are energy beings as our true nature, because energy is always in motion. So, it (and you) cannot be “stuck.”

anon2 · September 7, 2021, 9:50pm

Thank you for this, and thank you for your beautiful post. It’s not easy doing what you suggested, especially in that place. I guess all we can really do is just try our best and have some patience and faith, that always helps more than anything else. And faith often has a way of proving itself to you, especially when you need it most. The best example is my post from today.