My thoughts on marijuana usage

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so far i’m in the belief that ‘you don’t need marijuana to live a happy life’. i still do it because of the new feeling i get from it. i want to get back to not using marijuana to feel this good. i learned while high that i should exercise more and along with yoga to feel just like i was high.

marijuana lets me relax and feel what it is like to enjoy being in the present moment because before it i lived in constant anxiety just getting to the next moment in life.

i feel like i’ve grown older and learned better socialization skills to not need marijuana.

i definitely feel half and half about whether i should continue using marijuana. i want to slowly and gradually ease my off of needing to ever take it because i feel better when i’m sober.

i want to control how i feel at all times when i’m sober. i want the on and off switches to be available to me and choose when to let life have its way with me.

i feel vulnerable sharing this because i know the majority of those who currently speak are against using marijuana.

i wish this thread grows healthy and loving discussions. i don’t say these things because i want to be attacked, but i want to be understood and empathized with so i don’t feel ostracized which blocks me from changing to be healthier and kinder.

Update April 2022:

If marijuana helps you be a better version of yourself, go for it!

If the absence of marijuana helps you be a better version of yourself, go for it!

Marijuana users and non-marijuana users can co-exist peacefully.

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thanks for sharing your story, we can often (at least i do) start abusing ourselves with how a ‘spiritual’ person should be, and our egos don’t want to think that we still can (and) have ‘faults’ in our spiritual life

i.e. although raw veganism is beneficial it doesn’t enlighten you in and of itself

i find that as my path unfolds i keep dropping habits, developing new ones, same with people etc, none of it has to be forced

just because there are many more advanced people here or out there it doesn’t mean i’m ready to follow some of their steps at every given moment
growth happens at one’s own pace

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I don’t like the high of marijuana, that’s the only reason I’m “against” it for myself lol
I Do like the high of some other stuff that’s worse for you so there I just keep that in mind and resist :sweat_smile:

And as a wise old man (maybe reading this :D) told me before, being high is the (temporary) abscense of negative emotions, which can be achieved also with spiritual practice :)

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Just dont overdo it like me sometimes x)
and everything is oright
When I smoke one after a long break I get some inner insights but when I smoke to much it just stop me from developing

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@anon61582445
Has some friends who smoke all day and eat fruits :stuck_out_tongue:

very happy in life I heard

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My only complaint with marijuana is that in some way it’s a form of escapism and although it can help with some mental issues, it slows down your real world progress that might otherwise make the need for weed obsolete.

The reason why you’re smoking matters. Is it a way for you to meditate ?
I used to smoke weed everyday, go to class high and even go to my grandma’s high for family dinner. Looking back, it was pathetic. I stopped reading books, I stopped playing music, I stopped working out. I was late everywhere and worrying about my weed inventories, the thought of having to spend time sober, walking in public or driving high added more stress in my life.

I stopped when I discovered sapien med, because now I could improve my life instead of relying on escapism. The “hope of brighter days” really motivated me to stop.

Though, I still have this idea that when I’m rich and retire at a young age, I’ll smoke a little to close the loop. The transformation is complete. Lol, whatever BS I tell myself to smoke again, I don’t think I will.
Last time I smoked, I was visiting a customer, I was on the job, all professional, well dressed and everything. The customer was smoking, I caught him off guard gardening his weed plants. It didn’t take long before I was shoeless smoking weed and playing DJ hero and Guitar hero with him. 10 AM, I’m supposed to be mature. I didn’t do the job, I left with some weed in a bag and drove high to my next meeting. The cops were checking cars and I started worrying, “I’m not a kid anymore, I’m going back to old philip, I should have said “no” and proceeded with the paperwork”. Since that I don’t want to smoke again. I dropped the ball. I’m my own boss and I chose to smoke weed and play guitar hero with a stranger at 10 AM on the job.

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:100:

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Call me the odd one out but I think one who partakes in smoking or, imo, whatever it is you want to do, can do so but the most ideal ideal of circumstances there is to apply consciousness and do whatever to minimize negative impacts in your world and of others’. Eventually, also due to consciousness’s being applied by that person, you’ll end up changing and likely end up not doing it if you end up seeing your life being better by changing around or dropping doing it.

Only wild card is how you can work with addiction. But there is seriously just no point smoking the dojas listening to ojas if you’re making yourself not even like it lol

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I was just thinking about this🤯. There is no better feeling than being sober and control everything you can do, being in the “real” present moment

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I smoke like a firefighter at times of the year, you just have to know how to manage your mental and these emotion … and it’s not the weed that controls you but quite the opposite

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@Dreamweaver keeps making fun of me, but this is one thing I am yet to try lol (I have done Peyote, Ayahuasca, but not weed yet :dizzy_face:) and I am told my California membership will be revoked very soon for this reason… lol

I tried a magic brownie once and threw up right away haha

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so it’s been about 30 days since i had any marijuana.

again, i have no negative intentions towards anyone who enjoys weed! some of my close friends enjoy smoking together with positive benefits.

TLDR

got high. bad high. got help. learned.

i remember my last high i was really paranoid to the point that i wasn’t sure what or who to trust.

i was grateful because everyone i reached out to was so kind and supportive. they would sit and listen to me and all i felt from them was unconditional acceptance.

i was able to heal.

a friend lent me their book on empowerment. i read a chapter every day which is why i know i’ve been sober for about 30 days.

since being sober:

  • past friends and acquaintances have been trying to reach me. some i reconnected with, others i didn’t
  • i have been exercising more which helps me feel more attractive and energetic
  • i have been staying outside longer which benefits my dog who used to just wait for me to get off the computer
  • i began volunteering and found that i really enjoy it. there’s an instant positive feedback when you see the problems, are given guidance to the solutions, and we all celebrate the work we collectively completed.
  • i joined a support group (unrelated to drugs) and my heart is starting to open up
  • i haven’t had any urge to go buy and consume marijuana

what i’ve learned:

  • i need to stay sober to be available anytime my loved ones need me
  • i need to stay sober for the youth i work with who have a bright future ahead of them
  • i need to stay sober for my cute adorable (and yes sometimes annoying) dog who is my light in this world
  • i need to stay sober for myself and make this reality more beautiful and more loved and more peaceful than i found it

i’m grateful for the discussions taking place in this thread!

thanks for taking the time to read my post!

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Hahahaha ahhh this had me crying laughing.

I have smoked weed very seldom probably can count them with both hands only.

I never took it like part of my life even tho i was surrounded by people smoking weed a lot specially when living in Jamaica mon! :sweat_smile:

But some years ago working at a very busy place,
I was having this fun ritual every friday after work, with my good friend which was also my boss, so we would buy food, and go to her place, sit at the back yard, drink some wine, smoke, talk about life and read each other the tarot :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:

It went on for like 3 months and then she quit her job, i had no idea where to get and i wasnt going to smoke by myself either.

Then it took me a few weeks to realize i was a grumpy person on Fridays! Lol and would extend to the weekends, until i was like hold on… is the weed im missing. Nah never again lol

Before she quit she was having problems at work because she was smoking all the time at the parking lot from early. Then id call her after work and she wouldnt know what i was saying, i am glad it was just a time in my life to share about it not the norm.

(I dont judge tho, and i probably would smoke one day in a blue moon if i am out being all in the joy of nature lol near a fire pit) but thats it.

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Hm… never tried any drugs except alcohol. Feel like an innocent little baby, haha!

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my parent asked me something like, “should i try this just so i understand what you’re going through?”

and as i affectionately said to my parent and now to you, “you are amazing just as you are and you don’t need to try anything!”

:rose: :green_heart:

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I’ve started smoking cigarettes (“normal”) ones) at age 14. I was abroad, beginning high school. And that school was literally a drug paradise. Some class mates used to sell or distribute them inside biscuit boxes. In total impunity since the local police was extremely permissive about those things.

If only I could stand the smell and taste of weed, I know I had a great potential to become a big addict. I tried a few times but then stopped when one night I stayed “stuck” in an elevator… I was so high that I wasn’t able to push the elevator’s door and exit lol. So stayed in there :))

Semi-funny related facts: the first time I got caught with a cigarette at school (with consequent administrative punishments, etc.), I was just holding someone else’s cigarette while they were busy washing their hands in the WC. Big time with my parents, of course… And shortly after, I was rolling some tobacco at home. Just tobacco. My father caught me and went to yell at my mother “you see… after the cigarettes, now your daughter has become a junkie. I saw her playing with suspicious plants in her room!”

Not to mention another time when an ex and I got ejected from a café: we were smoking herbal cigarettes bought from a pharmacy but the bartender thought we were doing weed…

:)))

Other than that, my last weed adventure was 5 years ago with a group of friends. Again that fried herb smell and taste :s , some inability to articulate my thoughts and words intelligently afterwards… Definitely not my cup of tea.

All in all, I’m not the kind to totally condemn weed and similar material but I guess I get the same effect through some kinds of music and that’s enough for me. And most importantly, I’m joining what has been said so far about the advantages of being sober → not missing the opportunity to stay alert/awake on things that can be worth it eventually.

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Omg this cracked me up
:joy::joy::joy::joy:
I’ve never been that high, 1-2 spliffs are enough for me to start feeling like “oooh… It’s weird, I don’t want any more of this”

Yes exactly, this is why I don’t like it

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:stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye: I’m usually in your boat but I think that episode was when I was more like 17 and “in love” with my philosophy teacher. I was probably trying to find some inspiration to impress him the next morning with innovative ideas :joy:

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I’ve smoked these past two days :upside_down_face:

Each time I’ve gotten high I’ve experienced ego death for hours to quite literally any vibrational field i put on

It’s like before i smoke im like okay time to die lol here’s my experiences and pondering questions (sorry it’s hard to put into words when I’m back here sober, it all makes too much sense when I’m in the zone)

The first time it happened to light of savitur

Made me trip out in a way like i felt i was about to be killed from a psychic person thats dear to me, till i realized i was having an ego death and i should surrender to it, then i became floating in a sea of consciousness, aware of my organs in a current place in time space, it was if all time stopped

Light and vibrational always seems to give me a different type of ego death every time i listen (i had the smallest ego death to it back in may 17, like 4 seconds lol but i never spoke about it on here and i forgot what happened lol it was just a realization of sorts… I guess I’m just more sensitive so when i smoke it’s crazier)

I had a slower one to vibration of divine love, but my favorite fields to… “Die” to lol… are VoT or light of savitur

It’s crazy how I realized how the universe is just one big reaction of events that happened and unhappened in a glimpse of a second, recorded as one possibility in a film tape roll in a library of infinite film, each frame of the film a reaction to the one prior

The cool thing is with our consciousness we can just hop different film tape rolls through breaking patterns, making decisions and raising vibration

While being still in the frame of this movie im aware of my eyes nose organs all together in this certain moment of space time, and I’m floating in a sea of consciousness and energies, it’s like i zoom out and see we’re all really one, one big reaction from source/void but then i want to know what’s next? How can I hop out? And if i hop out wouldn’t that mean i create my own huge “reaction based film movie”? That already happened and unhappened? Am i truly liberated from being stuck in the game/matrix/“film”? Isn’t all probabilities/film really one probability if you look at each probability as a dimension of sorts and then zoom out? Wouldnt i be just an add on to the prior film? A sequel of sorts?

It’s crazy cuz I see my self in my entirety, all of the actions making me in this moment, when i zoom out it’s like a big mixture of all that i was and am, but if i look closer i can see the details/moments

I dunno man, egos gonna die again soon lol i should try blueprint this time, see what i experience then… Perhaps i should loop spiritual growth before hand so i ask the right questions…

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