These fields might offer a more stable, effective help for your situation:
New Perspectives (Outlook Retrainer is the alternative if you cannot afford this)
Blueprint of Life
Inner Pillar of Power
PTSD Help
Make sure to interact with this field.
I feel like the fields I suggested above, as well as OM’s suggestions, would greatly help your life. They offer a more permanent effect and would be best fit for your case.
Try them and let us know how it goes 