This has got to be my new favorite among all Captain Dream has created. Not an easy thing to say with the hundreds of creations available. This is what I really came here for years ago; this track. This is a track that I tried to substitute for with many other audios before this one existed.
What am I noticing so far? Today I enjoyed looking at a color, I felt a sensation of physical pleasure in my brain while looking at a pleasant color. This is something I feel must have been normal for me as a child.
Similarly, my ability to enjoy music has gone up.
Taking things personally is not happening. I clearly perceive people’s actions to be about them. This is a right mindset I had many years ago but the bumps in the road along the way did some harm to that mindset.
My desires or wishes no longer have a feeling of “need” embedded in them. I didn’t even notice “need” was there before. But now that it’s gone, I notice.
With that last mentioned change in place, decisions that were complicated before are simple now. I can see exactly what each choice has to offer and make a simple decision based on that. Before, each choice had attached to it not only what it truly can offer but what I wished it would offer and what I felt it should have to offer. That sense of “need” surely had something to do with my mind skewing the details.
Similarly, when it’s time to do some simple task like change lanes, I notice that now I feel and think that I simply “want” to change lanes. Before, I was thinking and feeling in terms of “I need to get over now”.
I see people in more reasonable terms. I see them doing the best they feel they can to meet their needs. A driver riding up my ass isn’t necessarily an asshole; they simply want to go faster. A person glaring at me on a bike as I drive past isn’t necessarily full of malice, they simply want to look tough. Understandable.
No one is making demands of me anymore. The same actions I interpreted as “demands” before, I now see them as “requests” or “wishes”.
I perceive people’s energy in passing. But it no longer enters me. It’s not imposed upon me. I sense their energy, I see who and what they are, and what they have to offer. But it doesn’t change me. It’s just information that is there like an offer made to me and I can do anything I wish with that information, or nothing at all.