Some Thoughts on Shen, Crucible, and Auric Repair
I noticed something back when I used the original Shen field. There were some positive effects but also an undesired effect. I would feel more alive, have a stronger faith in life, and a stronger will. But something surprising happened. Even though I am by no means a young man, certain people would take on a demeanor towards me as though I were a child and they were a predator. Since I held the energy of belief, they imagined they could harness it via getting me to believe whatever they wanted. Namely some lie about them being right or powerful and me being not those things.
It didn’t matter that I was not actually open to buying in to their message. They still perceived me as a target. Shen is the energy of faith, the confidence that you can believe in something and make it true. The energy of “all things are possible to him who believes”. But what is a hallmark of being an “adult” in our world? Growing jaded, hardened, unwilling to believe anything.
Is the solution to stop becoming more alive so that zombies will not target you? Or do you find a way to become alive and to stay alive among the undead? You can live half-dead and true enough, the living dead will leave you alone. Or you can have life in you, something worth having, and something they would rather take from you than have within themselves.
But “friendship with the world is enmity with God”. Or, Doing what it takes to have no evil oppose you puts you at opposition with the force that desires for you to be more alive.
Using Auric Repair I have found that they can not “break the skin” so to speak. It goes a long way towards keeping you alive in a hostile place. But it is not the entire solution.
Whether this next part is real or allegory makes no difference. The take away is the same. David Icke claims that in ancient or pre-history, a malevolent reptilian race interbred with or genetically modified our race. They wanted us to be more like them, to have a mind more like theirs. Because we were not enough like them to make the best victims for them. They fed off of the energy of our fear but they needed us to think enough like them in order to be able to fear the things they wanted us to.
With Negentropic Shen and Auric And Energy Body Repair, with these 2, I have found that yes, I become more alive again, and yes I become more of a target again within a world that is not “in the light” let us say. And that it bothers me far less than it did before I had Auric Repair. But it still bothered me some. And the fact that it bothered me… also bothered me.
I believe there was enough fear or negativity in me (placed there over time) to resonate with the energy of vampiric people. Something in me matched their untrue and harmful messages. Even though they could not establish an energy siphon, or break the auric barrier, they could see the life in me being moved by the negativity in me magnetized to and moving along with the negative coming from them. It gave them hope of a victim in time if they would keep pressing.
With Crucible I have burnt that out. When you are no longer perturbed by the evil in others, you may go farther than possible before; farther in becoming more alive and empowered. Take hold of the power to believe the good you choose to believe in rather than the disempowering lies that disempowered people want to have you believe about you so they can drain your faith and feel powerful for a moment though they are unlikely to ever use that energy to create anything of true worth.