I waited a little bit before commenting about this field, first time of listening 2 days ago, only 3 times because I had a massive head ache after listening for like 2 seconds, it reacted instantly all over my brain. All the day.
But I noticed immediate effects, extreme level of focus and clarity (the junk) but not totally because I feel a little dizzy today about processing thought.
Since two days it’s hard for me to sit, I need to move, I’m jumping, running and dancing in my house for 0 reason. 
I’m happier it seems, I’m laughing for “dumb” things, a genuine laugh, I didn’t laugh like that in a while watching animes or movies, I feel really interested in what happens and I appreciate every episode.
There is no shame, just me being optimally available to do a task at any moment. There are a lot of situation that happened the last 2 days that would damage my mental state but now I really don’t care at all.
I had a class that was a little stressing me because we are currently learning something I never did before, since I come from an another school and we worked on an another topic but now I see it as a challenge, it’s funny, it was hard but it becomes easier each time.
Moreover, today it feels like there is a heavy detox, all the fears I have are attacking me together but through this day they started to dissipate one by one, I was like “shit I need to to cleanse myself” but this time I didn’t do it to face what happens, it must be this field doing it’s work, my ego must be trying to fight to not dissipate.
One of the fear was people not wanting to spend time with me, I understood that it was not their thoughts but me projecting my own insecurities. People are not reaching me because they are interested in something superficial, they are around me because of who I am, they like me and I don’t have to feel bad about being loved, it was as if I was believing I didn’t deserved it.
I had a big emphasis on my hair, I started losing them brutally after a traumatic event, it happened in a week, I woke up one day there was like half less hair than usual, a massive hair fall occurred, so it was another traumatic event multiplying the already installed stress/anxiety. Since then, I shaved my hair every time because of shame, not even letting them the chance to grow the last years to see the results of all the work I did to recover them.
I was too obsessed about my hair I was about to shave this morning again, believing that they would never come back that maybe I provoked their demise about obsessing too much about that, the body can start to believe it’s true. Now I will let them grow and see what’ll happen, it’s the first time in 2 years I let them grow again and I realized that… they are normal in fact.
I will spam this to see where it leads me, as expected it could only be better than the free one and it did better to me in two days than a whole week with the free one.
I feel like myself without all the worries, the self sabotage or the defense mechanism of repelling people to protect myself, not letting them enter my world too much.
