Hello and welcome!!
One of the first things I’d recommend, as well as the self love recommendation, is working on forgiveness You did the best you knew how at the time, now it doesn’t serve you, you are moving on and that’s basically all there is to it.
If you want to keep it simple for self love, you can go with this timeless field: self love
Then, give yourself some credit! Most people when confronted with what they don’t like about themselves tend to be resigned to it. But you didn’t do that. You sought solutions, implemented them and got some real change. Not easy! And now you are doing the same thing, I’d say that’s fucking awesome And you found the right place! You really got this
After experimenting with free fields and seeing that it works for you, I’d recommend Crucible of the Past I haven’t used it myself but the testimonials speak for this field in the most touching ways And just to get a bit of a boost whenever you need until you start seeing some changes, try Positive Power Waves. It always puts me in a good mood
About being a virgin, I understand that it can be intimidating (as well as it’s possible when not a man) but know that for many women it can be something sweet and special (I have had that experience and it was definitely those things). For some it can even be a turn on (I have a few friends that have told me this hahah). I’d personally recommend being upfront with it for 2 reasons 1) a woman who would judge you for it is, in my opinion, not worth sleeping with 2) it will take some pressure off when comes the time. Going with it and letting a woman take you by the hand instead of pretending will be easier.