There are many answers to your questions on this site. Instead of just asking everyone to answer your questions, find the answers for yourself. There is enough material on this site to keep you reading and studying for quite a long time. AFTER you have searched here for answers then come back and ask. There is a compendium of knowledge here, placed here exactly for this reason - to give assistance and answers.
One of the most beautiful things in this life is that you can choose what you want to partake of and pay attention to. You argue against what things there are, then say you do not partake in them. Until you have the discrimination to focus on the life you want instead of rail against the choices, please be here for the reasons this place was created: read the information, use the fields, read the experiences of others.
I understand that you want answers, but stop demanding that others give them to you - find them yourself. They are here. People have been extremely kind in answering your questions, but you keep aggressively demanding more. Pay attention to where you place your attention. Is it on working the path or just complaining?
We are happy to answer your questions, but please do what your fellow forum members are doing - read, study, meditate, play fields, change, grow. If you are angry about life, there are fields for that (thanks @Nice2knowU). Use this place for what it’s here for and realize that the energies that you are flailing about with are understandable, but we are here to support you, not just to receive your frustration without your finding the plentiful answers that are available to all here.
I wish you the very best in finding peace in your life. Also the mass meditation field is a beautiful way to bring more resolution for your concerns.
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