I am only me. Well what I was told was that my HS is exactly like me, or quite similar to deal with it as with me. Aka not an easy person.
And also I’m right in thinking how I do.
I was asked why I was rejecting help and I was like…it won’t work, it isn’t allowed in my reality, go ask my HS why, it is its own making.
They checked, and the HS confirmed. I wasn’t going to receive any help. Then they “convinced” it.
I was like…that’s because your help won’t do anything in the end.
Later one they weren’t allowed to talk to me, go figure.
So, afaik, I am my higher self. I want to figure things out and not use intuition and stuff. And I won’t receive guidance or have knowledge/intuition about positive things, but I always know what isn’t allowed, won’t work…so there we are.
It seems like it also want me to reject all woo woo stuff and become an NPC…but try as a might, I can’t.