This field was gifted to me by a stranger turned great friend. I’m not sure if he’d like me mentioning his name or not, so for the time being, i’ll refrain.
Field is pretty good tbh. First day i listened to it, it made me tranquil and all of a sudden, knowledge and wisdom I’ve gathered regarding manifestation begin to resurface in my mind, thoughts like you can anything you want, just ask. There is nothing out of reach or too big. Before 3-4 years, I used to be limitless. I would see a million dollar car or house and wouldn’t sweat, and would say to myself " it’s nothing, buying this is easy. "It all seemed so easy and as if i’m buying some cheap toy because my awareness and consciousness was on another level, was living in non duality. But due to events, i became a lot limited, thinking forget a house, i’d be happy if i am able to buy a normal bike in this lifetime . But now I’m reverting back to my original state, my awareness has expanded, I’m more positive, negative thoughts have less of an impact. Whenever i react emotionally, i immediately become aware of it and the next time i am actually able to manage my reaction better. Plus now when i see those quite expensive cars and stuff, i automatically think that i can buy them, faith and belief are increasing. I’m also choosing the better action in situations. Have started meditating regularly again.
The things described in the first stage have started happening. It is coming to my awareness which activities and things that I’m doing are wasting ny energy. And I’ve already stopped doing that. I’ve become more active, doing more chores around the house, have started cycling once again after 2 years, and have started working out. My mum and sister were saying that my skin is glowing and am looking better. I’m struggling a bit with food but I’ve grown aware of the kind of food I am eating and eating habits.
With all this and surfacing of the knowledge I’ve gained, I feel more in control and more powerful. Whenever I listen to it, I just have this thought in mind " you can have anything, just ask". Architect of reality combined with imaginarium divine is a bop . This field is truly great, such transformation in only two days. I was expecting to experience some heavy release but till now none whatsoever. It also seems to be guiding me towards certain fields. Maybe idk. I also feel more confident and authentic and less caring of what people think, which is basically my judgment of myself, you know how it is.
2nd update : I feel powerless, very under confident, scared about money, feeling like i cant do anything in life, everything feels so out of reach. It feels weird thinking like this as this is not me, before 2020, i was a powerhouse, people would literally say that i should become a motivational speaker and that i am an inspiration. People would come to me with their problems and i had the ability to shift their perspective and dissolve their problem in a second. from that to this, i had no idea what went wrong lol. I even taught manifestation to several people. and I taught this one friend manifestation and this guy manifested a car in 2 months wtf. and here i am lol.
3rd update : Yep, it was purge alright It lasted for days and the awareness expanded. The field was making me aware of my laziness and food habits. It’s been a month since i was too lazy to workout but i forced myself to and my mind immediately wanted to go on yt and find the "perfect workout " for my goals but i immediately recognized the pattern and decided that i would just do it and I’ll do whatever exercise i’ll think at the moment. I did a 15 minute workout, HIIT and quite surprised the limiting beliefs and the doubts etc that were there started vanishing and i was deadass laughing like a villain lol, who just regained his power back. I feel very motivated and inspired to improve my life in all ways. I feel like my teenage self again, even though I’m 26 but that teenage self was a different breed. My connection with maa kali has deepened a lot due to other things and day by day i surrender to her more and more while also mastering manifestation. I’m also being guided towards some particular books that I’ve started reading. Yesterday I discovered where my inferiority complex stems from and today I’m gonna explore my imposter syndrome. I already feel a lot free from Inferiority complex and more comfortable in my own skin because I became whole and extreme confidence stopped having effects on me suddenly.