Hello everyone!
This is actually my first post here, and I really need help to make a stack of fields that help me heal, but i don’t know which ones should I listen to. It’s going to be a pretty long post so bear with me…
Ok so, my issue is: anxiety and panic disorder.
I’ve had anxiety since I was a toddler, always been very emotive, so I can say it’s not due to traumas or bad experiences.
Having some relatives from my dad’s side with mild anxiety, I think I can safely say that it’s probably 100% genetic
My attacks aren’t characterized by bad/intrusive thoughts or anything, in fact when I started having them I didn’t realize it was anxiety right away since i didn’t think about anything, the biggest symptom was: digestive problems. I don’t know how to explain this but everytime I am anxious or panicking, I start feeling super nauseous and I feel the need to throw up, because I feel like I have something in my throat/stomach. But if I throw up or empty my stomach in any way, I’ll feel better for a bit, so I also developped anorexia just to feel peace for a few minutes.
It’s like emotions don’t just stay in my head, they radiate in my body in such a strong way that I am not afraid of the emotions themselves… But having this physical reaction.
The most rational explanation that I gave myself is that my brain and my ENS (enteric nervous system) are strictly connected, and that at the minimum sign of anxiety/stress, the neurotransmitters are sent to the stomach and my digestive system just blocks and refuses to eat, otherwise it’ll thrown up anything. Or it could be an overactive Limbic system but it’s probably just the brain-gut connection.
My dad had this exact same fear-respose when he was a kid, but after his teenage years, it went away on its own. So I waited and waited… But now I’m 21 and nothing has changed, it even got worse since I use benzodiazepines now, lmao
Which fields may I listen to? Brain regeneration didn’t do much… Same goes for the amygdala one. I don’t want to get hooked on Valium for my whole life, I’m just 21. Please take some time to answer this