Wow! You’re really good at this. You just did two “steps” in one. Noyce!
I want to highlight something for you, because you hit on something brilliant and really important. You’ve noticed that your behaviors (awkwardness and shyness) are things you do in response to the emotions (anxious) you’re feeling. And everyone does that too, so you’re in good company there.
The reason why I’m talking about this at all is that you’re becoming aware that you emotions don’t just happen to you. You create your emotions…through the thoughts that you think and the stories that you tell yourself. And please understand: I’m NOT saying this to blame you (NOT at all). I’m pointing this out to you to give you back your power.
Because I’m sure you’ve noticed that when you’re in the midst of (say) full-blown anxiety, you’re pretty limited in what you can do about that emotion of yours. It sort of seems like it just happens to you, doesn’t it?
But, because you’re the thinker of your thoughts, there’s a lot you can learn to do about the thoughts that you think and the stories you tell yourself. And because you are the thinker of your thoughts and your thoughts create the emotions you’re feeling, you can gain a lot more control over the emotions you’re feeling.
For example (And because I don’t know the full story of what you’re thinking, I’m going to put some words into your mouth. My words may or may not resonate with you but they’re just an illustration.):
"These situations don’t seem like normal things to me anymore. And that’s understandable. And I see that I’m not alone in my experience. I see that a lot of people are now finding their ways as we move back to normal.
But, when I look back over my life, I can see that there were times–many times, if I’m being honest with myself–where I’ve been put (or I put myself) into situations which–at first–didn’t seem like normal things to me. Like walking. At the very beginning, walking didn’t seem normal to me. I had been horizontal almost all of my life before. But I figured that out. And my figuring that out must’ve been easy because I don’t really remember too much of any of that.
And using a toilet. That seemed really not normal to me. And I figured that out, too. And riding a bicycle, I figured that out, too. And you know what they say about ‘riding a bicycle.’ I might not have done it for a long time now, so it could now seem not normal to me anymore, but it comes back to you…"
Back to fields: I like your choices. You might want to look at the fear fields (like [New Release] Amygdala Healing (+ Fear Release), just to name one).
This notion that you have (and I’m not saying that your life didn’t change) leads to me suggest you look at the trauma fields, like:
- Trauma Release
- The Crucible of Stored Trauma: New Release
- The Alchemical Revision of Trauma
- The Crucible of the Past : New Release
- The Alchemical Blueprint of the Past
and many more. (The Ultimate List of Morphic Field Stacks thread might give you more ideas.)
I don’t know why, but this comment makes me think of Deep Brain Magnetic Stimulation: Testimonials, New Perspectives: New Release and The Outlook Retrainer: Testimonials. Maybe you might want to check out those threads to see if you think they’d be helpful to you.