I’m with @Owl in suggesting that, from a broader perspective, you don’t really want to erase selected memories. It’s my opinion that there’s value, for you, even in the most heinous memories. As Owl suggested, you want that value (after all, it sounds like you paid a mighty price for that value; might as well reap the rewards of the investment you already made.) which you can get by finding a different relationship with those memories. And, fortunately, we have tools like:
- New Perspectives,
- My personal emotional and mental supporter,
- The Crucible of Mental Space: New Release,
- New Album: Sapien Medicine - Mental Health,
- The Shamanic Medicine Blend
- and even the higher self fields (like ID, Higher Self Connection, etc.)
- even New Audio Field: Conceptual Realizations
The analogy that comes to my mind is what you want to do is cut out a diseased organ, whereas I’m suggesting you might really prefer to heal that organ instead.
I don’t know if you’ve ever watched it, but I’m sort of a fan of the TV Show, Rick and Morty [potentially geo-blocked link there]. There was an episode about this very topic, called “Morty’s Mind Blowers” where Rick removed selected memories from Morty.
Fans had a lively discussion wondering if one of the reasons why Morty continues to be naïve is because Rick has been removing so many of his memories (there’s a room full of them, that we can see, maybe more) and so never has a chance to reap the value that he had “paid” for.
I want to be clever and conclude with something pithy like “Don’t be a Morty,” but I’m not sure you want to model yourself after any of the characters on that show.