I honestly wanted to wait 1 week before posting results. That would be hard to do because of how much has changed in the last 24 hours.
The first thing I noticed was feeling good. I’m sorry I can’t be more specific.
A little while after listening I noticed that I had stopped insulting myself. I had a dumb moment where I opened up a gallon of water to pour into a cup. The cup already had water in it. This is the kind of small mis-step I make (probably we all make) from time to time. But my habitual response would have been to mumble “Idiot” at myself under my breath. And to never think twice about having done so. It stood out to me that I had stopped attacking myself.
A little while after that I noticed that I thought the person I was looking at in the mirror was attractive. I do not mean that I was attracted to myself. I had failed to focus in on and only see my flaws. My opinion of my physical appearance was not the only thing that had changed. I also felt like I liked the person in the mirror. I mean the way you would feel if you liked a person you knew and considered to be a decent person. You would have some sense of compassion for them.
Later on I began to have realizations while listening. I realized that psychological attacks and abuses I’ve suffered came via people intentionally altering my perceptions in order to harm my self image in a way that would lead me to treat them in a way that made them feel better about themselves; namely more powerful. So I started looping this audio with the Pineal gland audio. Actually, I realized this before. But after the audio I saw this phenomena as directly related to leaking out energy. The core energy is what leaks out, but the mind is the gateway through which the attack comes. So now I would strengthen the gate.
I’m just giving you snapshots. Plenty went on in between these moments that I’m sharing.
Next I realized that if I wanted to begin living a more successful life, it would mean that on some level I would have to die to the person I have been. I would have to become a different person. It’s not just habits that need to change, be removed or be added. Our sense of who we are actually becomes wrapped up in how we have spent our time. So I started looping this audio with Ego Dissolution.
What I’m not talking about in the above recollections is the feeling of having my energy back under my control. I’m showing you the side effects of having my energy back. But yes, it was something I experienced and sensed on an emotional and mental level. It’s hard to describe and recollect on it at this moment. It is a feeling of Wholeness. It truly is a sensation of having your soul restored.
If your experiences with this are anything like mine, you will go through the experience of realizing you have your own energy back. And it will begin to dawn on you what you need to do in order to put that energy to use for yourself.
